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Author’s Note You prefer the softer version of this story. The one where the shoe simply did not fit. That is not how it was told the first time. In the older telling, they cut pieces away to make the foot fit the glass. Toes. Heels. Whatever was necessary to force a match between the body and the expectation placed upon it. It was called devotion. It was called desperation. It was called love. No one called it what it was. I learned that lesson differently. They did not bring a blade in the open. They used cleaner words. Medical ones. Necessary ones. Words that sound like help. I signed papers. I was prepped. I was told what I needed to hear until there was no moment left where I could say no. Afterward, they explained what had been done as if it had always been part of the plan. Adjustment. Correction. Alignment. The language changes. The outcome does not. Something taken. Something altered. Something decided for you while you cannot stop it. You wake up expected to accept it. And by the way: cutting my toes was pointless. Pointless, but not meaningless. They never understood who they were looking at. A boy, they thought. Or a girl pretending to be a boy. Or a boy hiding inside a girl. They kept trying to press me into a single word, a single body. They were wrong. There were always two of us in this story: brother and sister, two threads woven so tightly together the world insisted on calling it one. They saw one figure and forced it to match their idea of a prince, or a maiden, or a patient, or a problem. The shoes they chose for me were boys’ shoes. “It doesn’t matter,” they said. “A foot is a foot.” They cut, shortened, corrected, balanced the arch. They thought they were fixing an error. All they proved was that they never understood I was carrying more than one life at once. I protected my family by being seen in as many ways as they needed me to be. Seven faces. Seven names. Seven versions of me standing in front of the blow so it never reached the ones behind me. If they needed a son, I was a son. If they needed a daughter, I was a daughter. If they needed a problem, I played the part. Because I could. So I did. Those toes they cut were not just mine. They belonged to every role I stepped into so my children, my family, the ones I loved, would not have to stand there instead. One shoe for him. One shoe for her. Both only fitting me in the end. So if you are looking for a version of this story where nothing was forced, nothing was hidden, and nothing was taken— You are holding the wrong book. This one keeps those parts in. He says he fears nothing But I see the tremor in his hands when silence falls Because nothing has a heartbeat now And it sounds like mine He built a cage of gentle words and called it love for me Spoken thunder dressed as calm, so I forgot how to breathe The cracks appeared where his control began to fade away And through the broken glass of lies, I saw the edge of day He said I was nothing A whisper lost in flame But nothing is the void that calls his name He says he fears nothing But I am that nothing real The quiet strength he cannot kill From ashes forged, from silence born I am the calm before the storm He should tremble when he hears I am nothing And everything he fears I was the ghost he carved from echoes of control But ghosts don't vanish, they reclaim the soul I learned the art of breaking and in breaking, I became The howling wind that will not speak his name He called me nothing A hollow shell, unseen But nothing can become the space where life will intervene He fears nothing Or so he swears But I am the nothing that breeds in his prayers The truth in the dark that he doesn't dare name And yet here I am, just the same The never-ending story has turned its final page The circle cracks, the curse unclasped, the echoes fade It’s not the end, just an end to the pain An end to the suffering that called my name He says he fears nothing But I am that nothing true The never-ending story he thought he knew Every scar, a chapter closing clean The past rewritten in gold between the seams He should tremble when he hears I am nothing And everything he fears He says he fears nothing Maybe he's right Because I am that nothing And I survived to write the ending. THE DRUG LORDES OF HARPER VALLEY: THE ACCESS HIGH ANTHEM & THE MERGER ROAST I’ve never seen a brick in the flesh. I cut my teeth on orange bottles, feeling fresh. In Harper Valley, we don't "score," we "consult." We’re skipping the street and going straight to the result. But every mom’s like: * Refill. * Blue pill. * Keep the kitchen real still. * Anxiety. * Piety. * High-class society. Chorus And we’ll never be Street (Street). It doesn’t run in our blood. That kind of high is for the folks stuck in the Louisiana mud. We crave a different kind of buzz. Let me be your Pharma Lorde. And baby, I’ll rule, I’ll rule, I’ll rule, I’ll rule. Let me live that Access Fantasy. The Merger Roast T